"Use what you have today, and don't worry about what you don't have. God will make up the difference of what you lack, if you will just give Him what you can."
Today I feel like I am lacking many things. We still have limited power, our kitchen and dining room are completely gutted, and there is a large trench dug through our walkway leading up to our house. Anyone who knows me, knows that all this dirt and chaos is my worst nightmare.
So why did God allow this to happen to two people who have believed and trusted in Him since they were very young? Were we not trusting Him enough? Were we not staying close enough to His path? These were questions I asked of myself quite often when I was very ill with lyme disease. Why did God allow me to become so sick and to feel like I was left behind in life. It was hard to be that sick, not able to use my education, and to feel like my purpose had been taken from me. But God provided a new life, a wonderful life, but worlds away from the life I had planned out for myself. The girl who was going to go on and get her doctorate in psychology and live in New York City, is now a country housewife with a growing interest in gardening. I also have a wonderful husband, that the independent girl I used to be never knew she needed. :)
So if God can turn by illness into a blessing, surely blessings will flow out of these inconviences. I mean it is God's house, He has the right to transform it into what he needs and wants it to be. Normally, a situation like this would bring me to tears, but it hasn't. In fact, my husband has been bracing himself since this happened for their inevitable arrival. :) Actually, the only thing that has brought me close to tears is the fact that God didn't allow me to have even one scratch or bruise during such a dangerous situation. And even though, the house was damaged, it is still here and did not burn down.
There's gonna be some hard and messy weeks ahead of us, but I have no choice but to trust God and hand this all over to Him. We will get through this, and probably have character oozing out our ears to show for it! :)